Well, tomorrow afternoon is weigh-in and I’d be fibbing if I didn’t admit to being a little worried. After two weeks of vacation, and being off of my regular eating and exercise schedule, I’m pretty certain that I won’t be experiencing a major weight loss this week. In fact, I wouldn’t be surprised if I haven’t gained a pound or two. Though I did tons of walking and swimming during my time away, I didn’t do the intensive exercise that I normally do at the gym. I also ate a few regular meals, put non-dairy creamer in my coffee a few times, and had fat-free, sugar free frozen yogurt twice. I know these aren’t the worst of eating offenses, but knowing my flawless capacity to gain weight, I wouldn’t be surprised to see a higher number on the scale.
So, what happens if I have gained weight for the first time since December? My old method of operation would be to say, “What the hell,” immediately give up my weight loss goals, and break open a bag of chips. I’ve never once started on a diet decline that ended well. Once I’ve gained a little, I’ve usually gone on to gain a lot more back. I can’t let that happen to me this time. I have too much invested physically, emotionally, and financially.
Transition from my Optifast shakes to regular food hasn’t been easy and my two weeks away, without monitoring and motivation from my doctor, dietician and trainer, has made me lose a little bit of my vigor with my weight loss program. Drinking the shakes was easy. I didn’t have to make choices, or control my portions. Now that I’m eating real food, some of my issues with food addiction are returning. I’m experiencing constant cravings, and find myself thinking about when and what I’m going to be eating next way more than I should be. Though I’m back on track with my meal plan, I still have a feeling of being out of control. I’m happy that I’ll be meeting with my doctor and dietician tomorrow because I certainly plan to share my concerns with them. I also plan on making a one-on-one appointment with my trainer for some extra motivation. Now isn’t the time to keep quiet and ruin the progress that I’ve made. I want to be fit, healthy, and feeling good.
I’ll let everyone know how things go tomorrow! I’d better get to bed! 🙂